Sleep All Day, Party All Night

That has been the lifestyle in this house hold!

When Justin first deployed and Emma was just an itty bitty 2 and half months old [holy cow -where did the time go?] she flipped her schedule at the lack of Daddy-ness in her life. I didn’t think to much of it at the time. I figure hey she is a baby she is not to be held to a regular sleep schedule like the rest of us.

Today we woke up at 5:27 PM.

Say hello to my party all night 14 month old. Yes she has flipped her schedule again and I have now come to realize that this is her way to stick it to the deployment. To bad she is just stickin‘ it to mama.

When we first got home from visiting Justin’s family Emma tossed and turned all night looking for her daddy. Her night time routine was to nurse with me and the roll over to cuddle with Dad. Problem is now she can’t find dad and I wonder if that is why she kept putting off night time or waking in the middle of the night for a few hours to play, only falling asleep with due to pure exhaustion.

It’s heartbreaking seeing this manifest. She doesn’t understand and there really is no way of explaining it. I tell her every day that Daddy loves he and he will come home as soon as he can. I tell her about Daddy’s job and that he is in a submarine protecting the waters and our home where we live. I tell her that Daddy is my hero for doing what he does and Daddy misses her just as much as she misses him.

Sometimes she runs off to play in the middle of it or sometimes she just stays cuddled close. I wish I knew what is going in her mind and heart. I can’t image how confusing it must be for Daddy to just one day be gone but I hope that deep down she hears me and that she believes Daddy will be home soon enough.